It All Started When Faerie Sprites Zoomed Through My Phone…

If you were to ask me 3 years ago, I would have told you lyrics are the most important part of a song. I have prided myself on my songwriting for as long as I could remember. It’s been the way I have spoken my truth without fear of rejection… It's been my way of feeling truly heard since I was 15. 

Whenever I felt like processing emotions, I would go to my guitar and write a song, but this time was different. I couldn’t find any words for the tears that were streaming down my face, at speeds and in amounts that I have never experienced before. 

You see in 2019-2021, I had the worst writer’s block that I had ever experienced. I just moved back from Los Angeles and was living in my parents' house again at 27, grieving a dream that turned out to be more glamorous in my head than the last 4 years living it. I had spent my whole life building myself up to be a person who was just not happy.

Not only did I lose my identity and my sunshine, but I lost my ability to feel heard through songwriting. 

On a winter 1AM morning, my tear-stained face looked up at my ceiling, eyes aching from consistent insomnia. I had never felt so alone. I got so low that I turned to something that scared me for 10 over ten years. I turned to the divine. I said out loud to my spirit guides, “If you are real, then I give in… I need your help... I can’t do this anymore by myself.”

All of a sudden the meditation I was listening to started glitching. The only way to describe the sound was like faerie sprites zooming through my iPhone. 

The next thing I knew I was astral projecting and when I woke up, I felt other worldy pressure move in one of my ears and out the other.

The next day, I reached out to my “woo” friends to see if they could help me make sense of what happened.

Through this, I decided to join a 1:1 Transformational program with one of my very good friends and mentors called the victim to victor which included sound healing and mediumship.

I have done sound baths before and because they relaxed me so much, I knew that it would at least be something to look forward to every week. 

What I got was NOT what I expected. This form of sound healing was more than just a relaxing experience. It was an emotional purge and a deeply healing process. During these sound healings, I would start crying hysterically, have visions of childhood memories, and discover parts of my subconscious that I never knew needed love. My whole body would tingle with the healing frequencies and the kicker was… there was singing… but with no words… just sounds. 

By the end of the 8 weeks, I felt completely transformed. I went from depressed, lost, unmotivated, and uninspired to finding clarity and purpose again. During those 8 weeks, I had moved in with my boyfriend, created a new business, and wrote 3 new songs for the first time in over 2 years. I had a new light in me that I had only seen watching home videos of me as a child.

The most pivotal lesson that I learned throughout that whole experience was that although telling your story with words is powerful, your story also has a sound and it’s SOUND that heals you. 

Sound forces you to tell your story from a subconscious and vibrational place and gives your body permission to release energy and transform that story simply by moving through you. It has no judgment, it has no agenda, and it will meet you where you are at. 

Sunflower Sounds were created to guide you in your own healing transformation using sound when telling your story when words just aren’t working. 

We are more than the words we tell ourselves. Do you want to feel the shift?